Dear Darnell

I feel like my life here is so boring without you. I mean, I have fun and eat food and spend too much money at Target, still. But I haven't laughed really really hard and loud since you moved. Yes, I will move to NYC when you get rich and famous. If you buy Janet her own apartment so I can at least come over without dying. DY.ING.

Riley is still perfect. I can feel myself getting bitchier around him sometimes, but I think that's just my uterus getting angry it's not with child. He's applying to an artist's residence in Italy, and if he gets it he's gone for a year. And I don't know what to think about that. It's so exciting for him, but a year is SO long. Like SOOOOOOOOO long and I don't think I'd want to date someone in Italy. But we'll come to that when the time comes I guess. It's hard to get excited for someone when you know your feelings are going to get hurt or it's going to make you lonely, you know?

I think it's smart that you're not dating anyone. Just stay single and figure yourself out for a while. Spend time with friends, watch bad movies, paint your nails alone while you watch the CW online.....I just described my weekends. I did think you moved on from Em to Allison too fast, and I was kind of mad at you about it. I don't know if you could sense it or not. I'm too fucking passive. Just take time to figure out who you are and what kind of person you're looking for that way next time you are in a relationship, maybe you won't have to break it off.

Living with Emily is pretty perfect and Deanna is really sweet. Hillary and Zack are constantly at eachothers throats because they're both at the point where they want to do something different with their lives, but they don't know what. Sigh.

I miss you so hard it's not even funny. When you're famous and then get me famous (like Selena and Demi) you'll have the city house and I'll have the beach house and we can visit eachother all the time. Ok? Good. Secret that shit.